Have you ever felt so sure that you wanted something for years, only to find out that you wanted something completely different and feeling lost as hell? That’s where I was at when I started this blog.
I thought I wanted to be an entrepreneur (I know, but hear me out). I knew I wanted something of my own in the world, and I knew I wanted to help people. The problem was that all of my ideas were so nice, that they were infeasible. Very infp of me.
About 8 Wild Cosmos
Even though I’ve stopped and started throughout my life, there has always been a part of me that has loved to write. When I was little, it was short stories. When I was a bit older, it was poetry about love (or at least, what I thought love was at the time). I won 2nd place in a county-wide poetry contest in middle school once. I’ve always known that I’m not the best, and that’s okay. I’ve always known that I am good enough and, more importantly, I love it and I feel that I have special things to speak into the Universe.
Fun fact: I tried out a food blog once before a couple years ago with the intent to eventually make money- a desperate attempt too soon made after my first failed business idea. More recently, after another failed business idea, I decided to stop trying to find a place that may not be right for me and, instead, followed my intuition. My intuition led me back to writing, something that’s always come easy to me but I’ve shied away from as a hobby or passion because ‘maybe I’m not the best’ and ‘maybe no one cares what I have to say’.
Regardless, this time around, I said ‘Fuck it!’ (one of my favorite sayings to live by) and I decided to start a blog with the intention not to make money, but to be free. Free to write whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Free from the confines of making money and adhering to ‘good business practices’. Free from devoting myself to a single niche blog because that’s what would end up being ‘most successful’.
8 Wild Cosmos is all the facets of my life that I love to explore, in words.
It’s about sharing it with the world so that I can connect with others like me, and to help others who also go through what I have experienced and still go through. It’s about complete freedom- something that I’ve learned to value exponentially in the last several years.
Meet my soul mate: Jenn
Jenn is a beautifully one-of-a-kind human in every way possible. A work of art, really. She brings a light into my life with everything she does- from building me up in everything I strive to be and do, to working the hardest I’ve ever seen anyone work, to being gentle with me when I’m down and putting me in my place when I get too big for my britches. She’s everything I’ve always wanted before I even knew I wanted it- someone who’s adventurous, outgoing, gentle, hilarious. You can read more about how I view soul mates here, but for now I’ll tell you that soul mates are real. And if you find one, hold onto him/her/them- because there may be nothing in your life more beautiful than to find your soul mate. I’m forever thankful to have found mine.
Meet my son, Wolfgang
Ah, my pride and joy. Buying Wolfgang was a big step for me because I’ve never been allowed to buy my own pet, whether it was because my parents said no or previous boyfriends said no. I’ve had family pets in the past, sure, but Wolfgang was the first pet I’ve ever bought for myself to take care of by myself (with a little co-parenting help from Jenn, of course). It was a newfound freedom the day I decided to bring him into my life, and it felt good.
Another fun fact: About 7 years ago I decided I wanted a hedgehog as a pet. I reached out to a couple breeders but never followed through with it. Then, last year, I just decided, “I’m going to get one now, I think.” And then I did. The end!